Saturday, March 12, 2011
Saturday after Ash Wednesday
Today my son and daughter in law are going fishing. Guess who gets the baby? Yes, me!!!
My son is leaving in 10 days for his new job overseas - he will be gone for a year and isn't real sure where he is going to end up, he starts in Kuwait. I am trying to let go of my anxiety. I talked to him last night, and unfortunately, I was being a selfish mom. Heaving and sighing about his being gone for a year. He finally said "I gotta go, I have a crying baby here." Well, that makes two crying babies son, your mother and your daughter. I need to knock it off.
The other night as I was entering my old church to go to the Adoration Chapel, the woman coming out of the church said hello to me so nicely. The other adorers in the chapel were pleasant, in a silent, reverent way. When I called the woman who keeps the schedule of adorers, she was delighted to hear from me. I am now an official substitute. When she heard the hours I was available, she was really delighted - from 4 to 7 a.m. / 7 days a week.
I have been going to my "new" church for nearly 4 years now and not a soul says hello to me. I volunteered for a couple of things, just to get to know people, but still no one spoke to me. I went to a pancake breakfast there recently, just to socialize, and the couple I sat with spoke to each other in Hungarian the entire time I sat at their table. I left in tears, I felt so dismissed. When I sit in the "gathering space" at the "welcome table" to sign up new parishioners, the ushers stand right in front of me and talk to the people they know. And never even acknowledge that another person is right there in their midst. BUT, I love the pastor of the church. I like the fact that the church is so much more traditional than most in the area. I guess with that, comes the fact that the congregation is mostly in their 70s, and aren't much interested in making nice with people they don't know.
I can feel my heart being tugged back to my old church. I have so many friends there. I feel like I belong there. But I have huge problems with the pastor of the church and many, many of the things he does. But then again, he did such things as instituting perpetual adoration at that church, and believe me, that was an undertaking!
Okay, enough of this stream of consciousness from me!
I am sure I don't need to remind anyone to pray for the victims of the tragedy and unfolding catastrophe in Japan. I will be doing so and I know you will too.
Have a wonderful Saturday.