Inspired by Kathy over at Moving on to the Past, I thought I would post my current knitting projects. I am making socks for a friend for Christmas (yes, they are late - I gave her a card and a small ball of yarn with a small knitting project hanging off the ends of toothpicks to actually open at Christmas, with the promise of a pair of socks). She had asked me to make her some, her grandmother used to knit her socks, so she has a fondness for hand-knit socks. If you have never worn a pair, you have no idea what you are missing. They are like a perpetual hug for your feet. Also in the photo is a shawl I am knitting. It is a lacy thing and so much fun to knit. I usually have at least 2 projects going at any time. I love to knit!
It seems I am entering some sort of winter doldrums. I guess it would be called Seasonal Affective Disorder. I do have this every year. I also do suffer from chronic depression that I have to fight with all my might. Some times the fight is just knowing the enemy and trying to outsmart him. I am that rare endangered species - an unmedicated depressed person. I don't take medications well, so my doctor and I agree that I am pretty good at "managing" my depression without them.
I find that if I have some major thing to look forward to, I get through the winter much better. On Tuesday, I registered for a marathon - it is in Maine in October - which should be beautiful. I said "never again" after my one and only marathon in October of last year, but I guess I have already forgotten the pain and want to do it again. I have spent hours on the computer planning the trip in the last few days. It does help.
I think I am going to have to turn off the television for a month or two. At least the news. I cannot tolerate it right now. I am sickened at the whole thing. I can't stand either side of the political equation in this country right now. Do we really need to check our brains at the door when we join a political party? If so, I will gladly relinquish my membership. In my life, I have swung from one extreme to another, perhaps it is time to stand right in the middle. I know I am a "social conservative," and that is non-negotiable. But neither party really embraces that.
Last night when I went to bed, it was around 20º, when I woke this morning, it was over 40º. I wish I could go outside and run, but the sun is up much too late, and I refuse to go out alone in the dark. My workout for this morning is an hour on the treadmill. I am grateful I can do this. I am also grateful for my iPhone with videos on it because an hour is a long time to stare at a corner of my basement.
I am grateful that I know this place isn't my final home. I am grateful I know that this life is just a moment, and I have all of eternity to look forward to. If I thought this was it, I would not be able to bear it.
We rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us. -- Romans 5:3-5