Thursday, April 28, 2011

Easter Thursday

When I place a photo on my blog, I go to my iPhoto collection - and look through the last year of photos.  Sometimes it prompts me to remember things - such as today.  This photo was taken a little over a year ago. It was a birthday gift for a friend.  But before I gave it to her, I took a picture of the blue hydrangea sitting on my desk in my office.

There's no good reason to post it today except it is pretty.

I remain in a testy mood.

Yesterday I wanted to start cussing at someone, but instead sat in my office smiling and praying.  One of my co-workers walked by and asked me "what that smirk was about" - so I told her I am trying to smile instead of swear.  She was satisfied with that answer.

I have a half marathon on Sunday - maybe the anxiety about that is causing me to be off balance.  Maybe it is this cold weather and intermittent snow.  Maybe it is at least partially the realization that a lot of my beloved shrubs and plants have been killed by my neighbor and aren't coming back.

I need to put my faith in God.  Faith and Trust.  And once I have done that, there should be little room for this kind of self-centeredness.


  1. I picked up again. I know, you know, how much I need to know you still love me.Also, how sorry I am.Whatever God decides for me, on Judgment day, I will deserve. I know that. Sorry.Just sorry.

  2. Dear Ros, Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are a beautiful woman who happens to have the disease of alcoholism. You would not blame yourself if you had cancer, you would do what the doctor told you to do and hope to get well. God loves you Ros, he doesn't reject you because you had a slip. He will help you get sober, if you are done drinking. Your recovery can start in this moment. Love, Mary (anonymous because I am at work)

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