Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Frigid February First
It is supposed to get down to 21º below zero fahrenheit tonight. Last night it got down to 9 below and that kept me awake for a portion of the night. I wake up in the night with horrible fears. Last night it was frozen pipes, water damage, bankruptcy, inability to pay for repairs, resulting mold, and the ruination of my home and its value. Oh, my mind does not reason well in the night. It is best for me to just stay asleep all night, if only I could!
In the daytime I plan wonderful things like my training for 3 half marathons this summer, followed by a fall marathon. The trip to Maine for the marathon with my 31 year old daughter.
I think about whether I should take another icon class in June - it is expensive. $775. For six full days of beautiful instruction in the art of icon writing. Six days of near silence and prayer. While prayerfully making another icon. Five days of vacation from work and all its troubles, and entry into another world. (Did I just convince myself? maybe.)
But from the hours of midnight to four, my mind is full of frightening things and nothing seems right. I will pray for a full night's sleep tonight.