Friday morning on my way to work after mass
Saturday afternoon, the crocus have finally bloomed!
I find so much comfort in nature. What seems to be hopeless is not. What seems to be dead, isn't. What seems to be guaranteed a long life may not be. Etcetera. The lessons are lovely in the spring.
The birds are singing and I love it. I don't know how I live through every winter. It is so difficult for me. I do believe it is called Seasonal Affective Disorder. Now. But then Now we pathologize every single vagary of humanity.
So, I was terribly upset about my son leaving for a year overseas. I still would prefer he didn't - as would his wife.
But last Friday morning, I watched endless videos of "safe" cars and houses, full of "safe" people, in a "safe" country - being swept away in an utterly unpredictable event. Imagine drowning in your own bed, as it is swept, inside your house, down the street. I cannot imagine.
I cannot imagine a lot of things. I haven't imagined a lot of things that have actually happened in my life and the lives of those I love. I have, however, imagined a whole lot of things (usually dreadful) that never ever took place. What a waste of time, energy, and heartache.
I will trust God that he will give me the grace to get through whatever I need to get through. And try not to worry about it before it even happens.
Yes, Spring is so amazing. Snow one day, snow crocuses the next. Easter comes at a most fitting time of year.
ReplyDeleteSometimes our imaginations can be our worst enemies. Most of the dreadful things I have imagined have never taken place either :)
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry to hear that your son will have to work overseas. I was hoping something would open up for him here. I will continue to keep him in my prayers.
I have no love for winter and every year I'm a live it gets worse. I do not have the seasonal disorder, so I just hate winter for what it is - cold and snowy and dreary and dark. I love the spring. It's by far my favorite time of year. I love watching all the growing things and when I was younger I was more into gardening. I've slacked off on it over the last few years, but there is nothing as wonderful as pruning and tilling the soil and growing seedlings and planting them.
ReplyDeleteI hope God gives you the grace to get through this year with your son away.
Wow what a beautiful scene, even if was still cold. The cloud looks a bit sea-serpent-y. :)
ReplyDeleteMy hyacinth bulbs are up and have buds! They started way before it warmed up...I will get a picture when the sun comes up :) Not a fan of the DST, I fear. I like mornings. If I could have my way, I would be "done" by about 6 or 7 PM and tucked in bed with a book. lol
I will remember you, your son and his wife in my prayers and at adoration.